Monday, April 28, 2008

Victory

MY very wonderful Rafa won
He won the first set 7-5 to Fed
And was losing 4-0 in second set
Then of course he did the whole Rafa thing
and whooped Fed's ass
I like my Rafa
He's the only one since 1914 to win this tournament four years in a row (Panit you were mistaken, Fed won the Hamburg one not this one)
and of course he will go on to win the three other main European clay court tournaments as well
That makes 4 years, 4 tournaments in a row
I am so very proud
Been 2nd in the world since he was freaking 17!
Sigh (with pleasure)


Anyway
Got SPM award thingy
Like I said, Top 6 ain't bad.
I'm in papers you can go see in Jasryn's blog (Thanks Jas and yes it is your head)




POEM TIME




Oh, but I - stand here in vain
A thrust, dear heart! - is filled with pain
More than the piteous soul could bear,
Dear heart! - is bleeding everywhere.

And so my eyes they do not smile
My lips, my hands, they do defile
The mere existence of mine head -
Oh, had they taken Yours instead!

Pristine white Dove, but if you knew
Of all the pain that I've gone through
Soft wings that gently kissed my cheek
Your gentle touch made me but weep!

I need to hold you; close to me
To hear your whispers, so softly
Bestowing calm upon my soul;
Your murmurs weighing more than gold.

2101
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(Inspiration was Wordsworth => )

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

ALALALALLA!!

I found this really interesting site:

http://www.crushcalculator.com/content/love/662987897

Because I was bored and decided to do something productive

Go check it out, whoever's bored and in need of some dire entertainment.. ^^;















(don't blame me if anything unexpected happens :P ..... I was really bored)



5 easy steps:
1) Put your music player on shuffle.
2) Press forward for each question
3) Use the song title as the answer to the question.
4) With the answers, comment on how it relates to the question.
5) Tag your mates

How am I feeling today?
Driving Sideways - Aimee Mann
Uh. I'm going crazy? Lol

Will I get far in life?
We Might As Well Be Strangers - Keane
Oh shit this is a damn depressing song.. Reminds me of bad times. So.. uh oh

How do my friends see me?
Lovestoned - J.Timberlake
LOL!! Ok I don't THINK they see me in that way.. At least I hope not

Will I get Married?
With You - Chris Brown
YAY!!!! But I have to find someone first :P

What is my best friend's theme song?
Another Song All Over Again - J. Timberlake
Well she probably likes it but I don't think it's her theme song :)

What's the theme song of my life?
Two of Us - Aimee Mann
Oh my favourite song at the moment! Well I guess it applies. More to best friend kind of relationship though.

"You and me Sunday driving, not arriving, on our way back home..."

What was high school like?
Wonderful Tonight - Eric Clapton
It was wonderful everyday! WEll, not everyday. But most of the time :)

What is in store for this weekend?
Promiscuous Girl - Nelly Furtado
LMAO.......

I wonder what I am going to do :S

How is my life going?
Bent - Matchbox Twenty
Ahhh so true.. I wish I could make it straight again

When can you get ahead of life?
What I Wanted - Nelly Furtado
"I went after what I wanted, but I never really got it.. But it don't matter at all"
Well that's if I could stop caring but I never do.... *sweat*

What's the best thing about your friends?
Brighter than Sunshine - Aqualung
Ah very true :D Thanks for bringing sunshine to my life guys :)

What song will they play at my funeral?
Blue Blue Heart - Bic Runga
OMG lol "People come for miles to see the girl with the blue blue heart... Someone said you were leaving but I don't feel a thing at all"
Gee that's nice = /

How does the world see me?
Don't Blame Your Daughter - Cranberries
Well this is a very nice song but uh.. the lyrics imply that I like to blame others :(

How can I make myself happy?
Angels - Robbie Williams
Yah if I could find a few
But God's helping a lot =)

What should I do with my life?
Wherever You Will Go - The Calling
Ok give me someone to bloody follow first then! Lol

Will I ever have children?
You and I Both - Jason Mraz
"Things are going to happen naturally" Hahahaha so maybe I guess!

What song would you strip to?
Tears in Heaven - Eric Clapton?!?!?!!
WTF... That just ruins the song
I wouldn't strip to any damn song lol

What does your mom think of you?
All Good Things Come to an End - Nelly Furtado
Ahahahahahahahaha yes I'm growing up mum..

What is your deep, dark secret?
Say It Right - Nelly Furtado
^^;
I can't say it, let alone say it rightly :(

What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
Oh no.. The theme song for Gladiator.. The aAaaaaAAAAAAaa opera one..
I don't want my enemy to be a damn gladiator =.=

What is your personality like?
More than Words - Extreme
Well yeah, obviously indescribable. Couldn't have said it better myself :P

What song will be played at your wedding?
Fields of Gold - Sting
NICE!!! If a guy sang that to me.. *drool*
(preferably Nadal)

Your overall theme song?
I Believe - Blessed Union of Souls
"I believe love is the answer"? Well, not to everything, but
many questions can be answered with it :)


THIS WAS A WASTE OF TIME =.=

GOT WIRELESS

They finally fixed it after more than 5 days.
I am still angry though because:
(a) Yesterday I wanted to practise driving alone AROUND MY NEIGHBOURHOOD and the stupid father made that stupid face of his. I mean I have had my license for like 5 months and I can't even drive around my own bloody neighbourhood
You can tell why I am so damn pissed off
(b) I am the one doing all the damn calling and phoning to TMNET and the stupid shit ass fat lazy brother can't even turn down the volume of the TV when I asked him nicely he was like "You retarded ar? Deaf is it?" and started calling me names. I don't know why he is always filled with so much anger all the time

Come to think of it, I don't know why I am either =/

(c) Then there's THAT (always there)
(d) And I missed my morning run because -



So today is not a good day.
I feel like punching something.




running out of me like a river
flowing down streams and
coming to a cliff like a waterfall
reaching the beach and sand,
becoming an ocean
of anger and hate and I am
sailing away with my hands
as my sails and I want to escape
from you get farther away
oh how I hate you so much
every single part of you
inside out and head to toe
your face and your body,
your mind and your soul
all charred black.
bitter embodied coal.

ashes they are yours
I scatter them to the wind
if only I could hurt you more
(i wish)
tear you out from within
let your life flow all around
on the floor
and into the ground
and you'll be gone










I sound like a serial killer haha.. One time I saw a movie with a Malay subtitle for serial killer that said "pembunuh cereal"..

Oh yeah..
To anyone who is interested:

There's a workshop about the veil(headscarf) at Saint George's this Saturday.. It's organised by this Australian artist called Victoria Cattoni and what happens is that non-Muslim women are asked to try on the veil and Victoria will guide them through an interview:

Ever wondered what it might feel like to wear one?
..what you might look like in one?
..would you recognise yourself?

‘Re-Dressing the Veil’
WORKSHOP- OPEN INVITATION

SAT 19 April 2008 10am to 4pm

St George’s Girls School
Jalan Macalister
Penang

‘Re-Dressing the Veil’ is an international cross-cultural art project by Australian artist Victoria Cattoni that invites women to come and try on the ‘tudung’. The project is currently being undertaken in Penang [Malaysia], Singapore and Northern Queensland [Australia] and has a number of stages that bring diverse individuals and different communities together. The first stage, a series of photographic portraits of Muslim women in ‘tudung’, has been completed in all three locations.

This is the second stage of the project - an interactive workshop that invites non-Muslim women to try on the ‘tudung’ and explore how they see themselves. The art project takes a ‘soft’ approach to unveiling stereotypes within a safe and creative context. While trying on ‘tudung’, we come not only closer to the subject, but we can begin to reflect upon our own perceptions and presumptions about Muslim women, and Islam in general. In this way, it is possible to demystify the ‘tudung’, since is often a lack of accurate information or personal experience that can lead to misjudgements of others, especially of those who may appear different.

This workshop has been carried out successfully in Singapore and Cairns, evoking thoughtful comments by the participants:
“Although we’ve had different religious upbringings - mine has been Catholic and Kadeeja’s Muslim – Kadeeja and I probably have a lot more in common… both growing up in small towns. It’s easy to see the differences, but we’ve actually had really similar life experiences. We have more in common than we realise.”

So why not explore your own perceptions?


If you are interested in attending, please contact Victoria Cattoni on 0173707210 to confirm your participation and the time you would like to attend. Sessions will be held at the following times and will run for 1 hour:

SESSION TIMES: 10am 11am 1pm 2pm 3pm


IF any of you guys want to take part of help out please let me know ASAP! I think it will be really interesting.

Bye.

Monday, April 14, 2008

NO WIRELESS

MY HOUSE HAS NO WIRELESS THEREFORE I HAVE TO COME ALL THE WAY TO STARBUCKS IN ORDER TO USE WIRELESS STUPID TMNET DESERVES TO DIE. ALL THEY SAY REPEATEDLY IS THAT MY LODGED REPORT IS BEING PROCESSED. MAYBE THEY SHOULD TAKE ALL MY SO-CALLED LODGED REPORTS AND STICK IT UP THEIR BUMBUM.

IT IS VERY HOT OUTSIDE BUT I CAN'T GO INSIDE STARBUCKS BECAUSE THEN I HAVE TO BUY A DRINK AND I DON'T WANT TO BUY A DRINK BECAUSE I AM TOO LAZY.

I LIKE CHICKPEAS.

YOU KNOW MY TOENAIL HURTS.. LIKE A LOT, IN FACT IT'S NOT EVEN THERE ANYMORE BECAUSE I HAVE ITCHY FINGERS :D (WHICH LIKE TO PEEL TOENAILS).

MY MUMMY WENT TO KL.

NADAL TO PLAY MONTE CARLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STARTS THIS WEEKEND OH OH OH CAN'T WAIT

BUT THE DRAW FOR THE PLAYERS IS NOT OUT YET SO I DON'T KNOW WHEN HE'S PLAYING.
AND A SPORTS CHANNEL, ANY SPORTS CHANNEL.. PLEASE BROADCAST IT LA LEMA... SO MANY GOOD TOURNAMENTS ARE NOT BROADCASTED. =.= WASTE OF TALENT.

SORRY GUYS, CONSTANTLY RANTING ABOUT RAFA, I KNOW YOU DON'T HAVE THE SAME ENTHUSIASM ABOUT HIM AS I DO (HOHO NO SIRREE) BUT

YAH

TYPING IN CAPS COS

TOO MUCH SUGAR

I'VE ALREADY RUN OUT OF THINGS TO SAY :S

It's 1.04 p.m.
Monday

I did every single exercise in the Math textbook on complex numbers.. HAHA PANIT, HAHA!

And Kylie yesh I miss you :(

Oh no now I have to explicitly state that I miss everyone else as well otherwise they'll be pounding me about it

Ok I miss everyone else as well

Ughhhhh bored.. I want to go home already

Anananananananananannaa
bananananananananana

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Morning

13.5km (roughly 14km as I had to run to the car) today
Slow and mellow - Took me 66 minutes.
Stayed up to watch the strong handsome man do his thing
7-6 6-4, 1 hour 40-ish minutes
Perfect.
He must win the finals
against Roddick the prick.
Eating second breakfast.
Runners need fuel.
But lately I've been having mega fuel overloads.

Later going for lunch with Rahael, Alyssa, Jiun Mei and perhaps Sammie if she is not too busy working at Guess?. I made Rahael a card and it's extremely pretty. I would take a picture and everything but I am a lazy bum to do all the uploading things. So just know that it's pretty.

() convex
)( concave



U.S. law enforcement officials developed a long list of drug courier profiles to help to decide when to stop and question air travelers. Criteria include: having no luggage, having brand new luggage, having a small bag, having a medium sized bag, carrying two heavy suitcases, traveling alone, traveling with a companion, acting too calm, acting too nervous, dressing casually, wearing expensive clothing and gold jewellery, walking quickly through the airport, walking slowly through the airport, walking aimlessly through the airport.



Je vais parle francais. Actuellement, je mange de petit dejeuner. Je bois le café noir, j'adore. J'ecouté la musique; Jeux Interdits (Pepe Romero) et je chante! Je suis parraseuse, Je ne vais pas aller au CPS à dix heures. Peut etre je serai n'aller pas.
Mais...

Je suis -

:(

Friday, April 4, 2008

Today

Today
We had a swimming thing.
And I made my team lose :P
Johan introduced me to his mum.
I like her she's nice.
Johan's pretty nice too.

I did something really stupid today
But
I
can't
say
what
because
it
makes
me


HATE.




the sweetness on my tongue
made me want to cry,
it was nothing i had longed
for and nothing i had tried.
a step away from what
i knew to be world
again i became caught
as that

girl











Singing With You by Chris Brown at the top of my lungs.
Only 1 and a half hours to watching NADAL play semis.
I'm staying up.
Tomorrow morning
Hopefully 12 km at least
It must not rain



Over
and
over
and
over
again


broken record
plays -

Thursday, April 3, 2008

End

So.. Holidays.

Nadal defeated Blake this morning 3-6, 6-3, 6-1. Fantastic play, 19 break points and although he only managed to get 4 or something I still love the man. TRES FANTASTIQUE.
Ran 4 km in 17mins05sec.. Not world class but pretty fast as it would mean less than 4 half a km. Did some weights for about 10 minutes.

Then... Filled in the MARA scholarship form. I have to attend the damn interview in KL next week. Wrote a 300 word reflective essay on chosen profession and reasons for choice. (Psychiatry, help others)

Oh yes
Mum went to PTA meeting and wrote down what the teachers said about me

It cheered me up considerably after the whole "Flush the Psychology paper down the toilet incident" which not many others know about but as of now I am revealing to the world.

Mrs. Kujiper: Sarah must step down a bit and try to relax. She is doing fabulously!
Dr. D: Sarah is gifted (Hmmmmmmmmm... >.<) but she must relax (What is it with these people and relaxing?!?!)
Mr. Edwards: What else can I say about Sarah? There's nothing left to say.. (Hahaha my mother was particularly amused with this one)
Mr. Walton: Sarah has been one of the best students thus far. (WHOOOOOT!!!!!)
Mrs. Junges: Are you Sarah's mother? That's where she got her lovely smile from! Sarah is delicious. *cough* Oh I mean delightful. (My mother likes Mrs. Junges a lot :P:P:P)
Mr. Cadman: Sarah has proven herself (and then he went on about some prefect thingy)


But anyway they were all lovely comments and I thank the teachers for thinking so highly of me but I'm not all that. On the contrary I am very different inside because of -

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Wish it were different.

Two months gone now, nothing's changed.
I'm still here it's all still the same.
Seeking perfection in a world that has none.

I need to run

(away)

Someone take me

please.




Picture perfect
You stare at her reflection
Will you ever understand it
This secret I (don't) mention
I want you to know



me


But you turn away
to look at another.
You turn away,
from me.


(look at me)


once and you will see it all
in my eyes
everything laid down,
the table set


Picture perfect.


Hello blog. Change is badly wanted. Futile life. Dissatisfaction with _________________________________________________________________________________ and other things. Wish I knew but I don't so I can't say. What I mean. This is not going to make sense because it doesn't to me. Nothing ever does and -