Fking worst day ever

Today was one of the shittiest most horrible, screwed up days
in
my
entire
pathetic
life.

1. I got 6 for english Othello commentary (although I got 22/25 for the other one, scant comfort)
2. I screwed up my oral commentary because I forgot to press the timer, I kept on repeating sentences and going uh uh, I was really scared and I pressed the pause button countless times which IS NOT EVEN ALLOWED. I dunno what happened.
3. I made stupid careless mistakes for chem
4. Its the first time I've ever gotten 6 for bio and it pisses me off cos i knew every single thing that was supposed to be written but i didn't write it
and i don't even consider 6s!
I know that sounds really condescending and stuff but
UGHHHHH
IT'S ME
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!




every thing












FK FK FK FK FK FK

Exams

Poems i wrote recently


Bright lights
against the
Black highway
speeding by so
Fast i can hardly
tell if i'm moving or
Is it you that's
flying by so quickly
Even as i speak i know
You're drifting away
From my fingertips trailing
Against the window pane
Rivulets of rain
running along the glass

Escaping

But i'm forever trapped

Right here

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Happy Faces

Beneath these shiny faces
I sense all that glitters
Is stone cold malice:
A sheen of lies, sinister
Underneath the surface
Of the stretched skin,
Pulled so taut across nose and
Cheek bones, in
These laughing eyes
I see some happiness that dies.
In these dancing hands and feet
I know of lovers that never meet
They stare with plastic faces
At each other,
from afar
A hundred paces,
From each other's heart.

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16.5km

Yeah 16.5km this morning

I need to be perfect
every fibre of my being
a delicate curve
traced in time

all these
( )
clinging to me

making me heavy,
pulling me down

where are my wings to fly?

filaments,
drawn through my limbs
pulled taut through the

- stretch -

of my skin


if i could be but
a thin line
no shadows cast
behind
me when I walk

alone in this cold world

So untouchable


(for you can't see me anymore)

Shitty day

I want to touch your face

I should be studying

Tag List out 20 names.
1. Jiun Mei
2. Qistina
3. Liani
4. Atiqah
5. Han Lyn
6. Wai Kit
7. Niresh
8. Sammie
9. Priya
10. Wei Yun
11. Kylie
12. Jing Min
13. Su Yin
14. Darren
15. Evonne
16. Jeslyn
17. Rahael
18. Alyssa
19. Yench
20. Quine

How do you know 14?
Mr. Darren ah. Met him in IB. Funny fella la that dude.

What would you do if you had never met 1?
I would be so damn incomplete ok she is an integral part of my life. Inseparable.

What would you do if 9 and 20 dated you?
I would be very worried.

Would 2 and 16 make a good couple?
Oh my God LOL........... Qistina and Jeslyn? Right. No they would make a very weird couple, o Wise Survey.

Do you think 8 is attractive?
Obviously!

Do you know anything about 12’s family?
She has a brother and her father is an important person.

Tell me something about 7.
He's an atheist. LOL! Sorry Niresh that was the first thing that came to mind. Having said that, he is very nice! Niresh is fun!

What is 18’s favourite?
TT :P

Who is going out with 19?
NO ONE.. HAHAHAH :P

How old is 16 now?
18 same as me.

When was the last time you talked to 13?
Talking to her now

Would you date 4?
Hell yeah babeh :P

Would you date 17?
Stupid survey ran out of questions ka?

Is 15 single?
I'm not sure!

What is 10’s last name?
I think it's Lim :D

Would you ever consider being in a relationship with 11?
Lol. Kylie taken ady laaaa

Which school does 3 go to?
Currently school-less I think :D

Where does 6 live?
Rich area :P

What is your favourite thing about 5?
She one hot mama who can make damn nice graphic designing thingies

Dilemma

I won't start to. ( )
You.
I won't start to. ( )
You.
I won't start to. ( )
You.

Because:
1.
2.
3.

And I just can't.
So why am I thinking about it?


On your breath
the smell of
your smell.
And my wordless
thoughts can't tell

(you what I'm feeling)

But I don't know
why it is I think
what I feel
and I dream
what I say
in my head
I am lost
between night,
nearing day

and the futility
of every single wish
fluttering by,
broken butterflies


(crushed)


beneath your foot.

Ooooooooookay

So. Sports Day was.. Yesterday.
We're all still not sure who won yet because they didn't announce it.
I contributed 4 points yay! (1st for 800m, time was 2:51, which actually sucks cos that's like 85 seconds per 400 meters = 20 ++ seconds per 100m)
So.
But still.
Wei Yun says I may have broken a school record but I highly doubt it because it's not a very good time.
I went there early and ran 10 rounds of the track (biggest loop)

and then I ran 2 with Ryan


...and then 2 with Darren

And THEN I went back early because it was hot and boring and people were bugging me while I was doing my French homework.
I had a nice chat with Lena but I shall not tell all of you about what because it's

.



And then!!!!
There was a sleepover thingy at my house. I invited 7 people and we all had to squeeze into my tiny room which is about the size of a box
(no, really)
I hope everyone wasn't too uncomfortable
First we watched American Idol and everyone drooled over the two Davids (Sara: I like! HAHAHA!)
We played Pictionary which was so God damn hilarious
No matter what you say, that did NOT look like scissors, Jasryn.

And then I opened my MSN and surprise surprise, Kai Sheng had added me
So we had a conversation
8 girls and one guy
Wait.. What guy?

We all have a theory that he was drunk. Cos first we turned on the webcam and he was like going yadda yadda yadda then suddenly "Wait I'll go turn on MY webcam" (That was the most hilarious bit) and then we had a video conference convo through Skype. For some reason he had like a permanent smile on his face.

AND IT WAS SO FUNNY WATCHING SU YIN'S REACTIONS.
Oh God.
I'm getting sticthes just thinking about it.

Anyway Kai Sheng is evil.
Cos in French I asked teacher "How do you say 'save the extinct animals'?" and he was like "You can't save the extinct animals." Yeah yeah okay okay my bad
=.=

Anyway we then watched a movie: Sydney White
Which was holy shit stupid.
(Typical predictable chick flick movie)

and then some of us were tired so I went to bed
And some stayed outside talking to boyfriends

or messaging under the covers :P

and then I woke up at 6 and everyone was still sleeping
And I was thinking how lucky I was to have such great friends


Then I ate and did some math and went for a 6km run
Which, by the way is only 4 miles. You know if I count my distance in miles I'll be running a lot more? I should start doing that).

and when I came back, wow, Jing Min was up reading the papers and the others were kind of up too

Surprise surprise
So we were all going to walk to McD but some of them had sore legs and arms and what not. So my maid made them brekky
And we watched another movie!

JUNO

!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now that's what I call a good movie
I think it's my favourite movie now
It is teh lovely
LOVELY.

And then... after some indecisiveness everyone went home
And I fell asleep
when I was supposed to be doing Math

I did a bit when I woke up
Then I ate again
I can't stop eating
-.-
But I guess I can afford it?

BLEH
BLEH

I'm not supposed to be online BASH

And exams are in one month
ONE MONTH PEOPLE





I.
Need.
42.

(The answer to everything, including maximum marks.)